You are sitting contemplating how so many things are distracting you. You want to focus your attention on your friend's interaction. I was honored to have a close friend talk about many different subjects. This time was full of sharing pain, joy, confusion, and love which brough insight and wisdom.
So I bluntly asked... "Can we could go grab some items and Walmart?" and she responded "Yes!" This gave me the chance to walk, think, and continue to share our stories of recent events. I was astounded by how much care, compassion, and truth was offer in a such a small amount of time.
God has been working on my attitude of living in Arkansas. I continue to wrestle God so much about every opportunity provided here for me, and find moments where it seems that we have different agendas. However, my community around me has started to become more detailed and consistent. This has enabled me to let my guard down and allowed myself to connect more with those who are involved in the workings of my life.
Therefore I want to just say that God does not stop working on our lives. He will work on our lives until we hit the grave. This is hard to come to grasp because I think that I have worked on many difficult things in the past, and want God to so desperately give me the green light. However, he has work to be done, and that work is through me on various facets of my faith. This sounds big, but in the moment it truly is small.
Those moments have been small, but extremely difficult to understand what God is trying to teach me. I am growing in awareness of things that are not where God wants them to be. In addition, I continue to find myself using my own strength to get through these moments and God has open hands waiting like a sweet gentlemen to move these mountains in my life.
When that shift happens it is something so experientially rewarding. I cannot fathom the weight that has been lifted when I realize that Jesus is enough! He truly has the ability to reward me when he gives me an opportunity to conserve my energy for other important tasks than waisting them on frivolous anxieties. It has a residual effect. Basically this moment encourages God to figure out what needs to change, and allow me to focus on other opportunities that will bring me closer to him. This is satisfying and good for the soul.
I was reminded that my identity is found in God, nothing else!
Seriously I am his Child, and through that relationship I find peace and nothing else!
Furthermore, I am able to rest in his peace, and get to continue my rewarding relationship with Christ.
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