Sitting on a fence

There are times where life feels like a crossroad. A point where there are many different options to pick from. This point in life can be quite a stumbling block. Even better, it is a point where its stressful to have the point, as well as stressful in making a decision. Those might sound synonymous however the truth is that finding peace and comfort in the decision is twice as difficult.

I have had many important crossroads in my life. For example, the decision that i had to make about staying in England or moving to the states when i was only 13. There was many different factors to consider, as well as it being stressful because God had clearly told me that i needed to make this decision.

I am continously curious behind meaning and purpose of everything in life. I even find myself contemplating the purpose behind simple things such as the timing of incidents. It can be quite a daydreaming consumption, lol! I have come to realize that God has given me the gift of thinking. You could reframe that gift, by just explaining that much of my personality is run through a motor of speaking through my thoughts. Thus, why i appreciate the aspect of blogging.

Therefore, as I find peace in this season of graduate school, i consider the many crossroads ahead. I pray that my decisions will be based on many important factors, not just the existential side of decisions. I find that many errors at times of decisions in my life are because emotions decided to override the decision-making process.

I hope that decisions that will make me a better person will be the ones where i have truly succeeded. It can always be discouraging when looking back you know you made a detrimental mistake. But I hope as i am maturing (through the lord's eyes) I will become a better person, maybe a pro at these crossroads. Crossroads can be difficult to evaluate, but with a guided spirit, a great sense of accountable community. These crossroads might start to get easier.